SOLDIER BOY

This was a strange one. I was away getting some shopping at my local supermarket and on the drive home I started thinking about military no:2 dress (used for parades and ceremonies). I 'felt' someone salute at me and it dawned on me that a spirit person was drawing close to me in my mind. All of a sudden all this information came into my head and his energy was so strong that I felt overwhelmed and started to become emotional...I had to tell him to pull back and wait until I got home because I was driving and I might forget what he was telling me.

I raced home and run into my bedroom, leaving my hubby to put away all the shopping, explaining, I have a spook and need to write stuff down....HA HA (He is well used to me and the spooks.) I found myself wanting t quickly sketch the drawing above and I added the information as I went.

I realised that once I was writing about a soldier who was killed in Iraq, I found myself wanting to doubt the information but ploughed on regardless...I had to trust in Spirit. I prayed that this was for real and that I wasn't making this stuff up.....

I posted it to the 4/5 groups I use on Facebook to post my spooky stuff and soon enough someone got back to me.

What have I learned with this one? Mmmmm.....that I need to carry a sketch pad and pencil with me! HA HA

 I guess the biggest thing I learned here was to absolutely trust the information I receive. This one has left me feeling humble....a family is in pain out there and this young laddie reached out and through Spirit was hopefully able to ease the grief and anger felt by his family at his unjust death. This really touched my heart and I am so happy this young laddie found a way to speak his voice and I hope there is some peace felt by all involved. I am sitting in awe of the power of Spirit at the moment!

LADY WITH KIND EYES

I drew the lady, above, a while ago, beginning of July I think. No one seemed to want to claim her....and that was ok because I know know that sometimes I can hold onto a spirit drawing for a long time, even years, before it is claimed. I decided to repost her and see if anyone could claim her.

I knew the significant thing to draw with this lady was her eyes. I just 'felt' she had a kindness to her eyes and there was a loving concern for her son this side of life.

A lady posted this picture of the lady first and I was immediately drawn to her eyes and I felt this photo 'felt' right to me.

I showed my friend and she made the comment that she couldn't really see the same person between the photo and the drawing...she somehow appeared younger? I thought about that for a minute. For me the eyes were similar and that was the main focus of the drawing for me. I asked my Guide why she didn't make me draw the glasses and he made me feel that she wanted the eyes to be clear on the drawing because they were significant.

I have come to learn that Spirit will impress on me how they want me to draw them. Some show themselves being younger (or older, if they are children - child continue to grow in spirit.). Some will get me to focus on a specific thing about their face. Some will get me to draw them in clothes they were known to wear etc. I leave it entirely up to Spirit how they want to come through, although I do impress on my Guide that I really would like to draw them as they might appear in a photo belonging to the person who will claim them.

This one touched me deeply and I am not ashamed to say I had a good cry when she was claimed because when drawing her, I could feel the young lads hurt and pain and I could feel the spirit ladies concern and desire to make him feel better. I cried when I drew her and I cried when she was claimed. I really hope it makes  difference to the young laddies well being.

REFLECTION 1

So....it's been a few weeks since I first started posting my spirit drawings and I think its time to reflect on how I feel about it all.

In all honesty I feel disbelief that I am attempting spirit portraits. I am under no illusion that I am a complete beginner and I am aware of my trying to find my feet and understand how this all works. Despite all my years of  developing on and off over the years, I still have more questions than answers. It would appear that I am swimming in the deep end of trying to do drawings using a mixture of 'knowing'  and 'feeling' along with impressions. Each one as clear as mud!

I think my sense of  simply 'knowing and feeling' is strongest. I find myself saying 'I feel...she had brown hair, she was a funny person, a pointy chin'. Other times I just 'know' things without knowing why. An occasionally I get impressions in my mind that can be snippets of clear or vague images. I think I hear thoughts, I call them thought voices but with everything kind of happening all at the same time, its hard to separate them.

I am aware at the moment that I am consciously 'letting go'. I am literally saying exactly what comes into my mind.....and that takes balls because some of the stuff I receive, whichever way it comes, can be bizarre to me! I am learning to give in and completely trust that the information I receive is relevant....not for me, hence it being bizarre sometimes but for the person who has to receive it. So for the moment, this is all I can do and hope that the more it comes to me the more it will make sense and I will have a greater understanding of it all.

MUM AND DAD

This one was a difficult one. I had originally decided to do a tarot reading online in a Facebook group and thought I would try my hand at some psychic/mediumistic stuff too. I did the tarot reading and typed it up and also typed up the info I was getting from Spirit.

I posted it and the lady could take the tarot reading but could not relate to the spirit information. I was so embarrassed. I thanked the lady for her time then sat on my bed and continued doodling on my writing pad wondering what had gone wrong. I drew a little sketch, wrote down more info then decided to put it to one side. 30 mins later, i had this 'thought' to post the information to one of the spirit groups I practice on and luckily enough, someone was able to claim her. Thank god!

So...I am now wondering why I cannot seem to work one to one with someone...it all seems to be rather random. I'm not sure if I am simply trying to run before I can walk....its a learning process....I guess time will tell.

LITTLE CHATTERBOX

I recall this little girls energy being all over the place when she came through to me, full of beans and happy in a nonchalant kind of way. I immediately picked up that this we girl loved to chatter away and she made me laugh. She was quite the character. I think this was the first child spirit I had drawn publicly and I was a little nervous about sharing it.....the death of a child is a very difficult thing and must be handled with care....god forbid I offend or upset someone!

NONNA

This lady's energy was amazing...very animated and excitable. I really enjoyed drawing this lady. She was excited at the thought of getting a message across to someone important!

I also loved the energy from the individual who could claim her! HA HA

The amazing thing about this drawing was the fact that she spoke Italian to me. She was talking about her love of food and she placed her fingers to her lips and said 'Bueno, Bueno'. I didn't have the foggiest idea what that meant and actually had to google it afterwards!

This has to be my favorite spirit connection so far!

PEARL

Now....I enjoyed drawing this lady. I had a very clear image of how I wanted to draw her and I just knew there would be a photo similar to this picture. I was also very clear about wanting to go back to the 50's/60's with this lady.

FISHERMAN

I knew straight off the bat that I wanted to draw a male and in particular, a male who loved fishing.....I felt compelled to draw him with a hat and checked shirt. I felt that it was important to draw him in these clothes.
The 'law' office was not clear to me and I won't embellish anything so I simply wrote what I got and hoped the individual would understand or relate in some way.

SAD MAN

I don't recall much about this drawing other than I felt a very sad feeling with him when drawing him. I do recall thinking I was going to be drawing a lady then this male face appeared with facial hair. I quickly jotted everything down as I was hearing it in a 'thought voice' (Spirit give me the information telepathically via my own thoughts....hence the reason why it is so hard to know if I am talking to myself sometimes.)

I posted it to Facebook and after some time, someone commented that they may know who this is. (identifying info is deleted for privacy reasons)

THE BEGINNING

So - I am dabbling in spirit portraits and thought I would write about how this has come about, the process and my journey along the way. I can't say I have a riveting story to tell but some might find it interesting. For me it's really about just recording my experience. I have been fascinated by faces for a long time and love to sit and draw them. I am aware of having some psychic abilities and mediumistic abilities also.....I am far from what you might call a 'medium' and I am certainly no professional but I guess the two loves of all things spooky and drawing faces have come to a natural progression of combining the two. 

How did it all start I hear you ask....good question. I discovered spiritualists churches around the age of 16 yrs old (over 25 yrs ago) and was amazed at watching mediums stand on stage passing messages from deceased loved ones to random people in the audience that usually consisted of about 15-20 people. Although a wee bit scary at the beginning, I came to love it and over the many years has become normal for me.

Over the years, I fell in and out of many different spiritualist churches either to watch visiting mediums give messages or to join their psychic development circles to see if I could develop my own abilities. I can't make any claims to having been born with fantastic abilities where I see dead people standing at the foot of my bed, prodding me to tell me messages but am aware of many other strange and at times frightening experiences I have had since being a child.....perhaps I  might share a few on here one day. :)

So, anyhoo, in  my mid 30's I decided to try and develop and understand my abilities as I became aware that I was having more experiences and so set about joining what would become a long list of psychic development circles, searching for something but never really finding it.

First of all I tried SNU (Spiritualist National Union) spiritualist church circles. I can only talk about my experiences of these development circles and in all honesty they were awful. They adhere to very strict principles of how a person should work with Spirit, throw in their religious beliefs and rigid values, it made for a difficult and at times, often horrible experience. Although on the other hand, they very much believed in promoting the evidential aspect to working with spirit - giving the client certain information about the spirit person such as appearance, what they may have died from, their personality, defining characteristics, etc. I felt that nothing was explained in a way that was easy to understand...in fact I felt there was very little explanation of how Spirit communicated. I always found them to be secretive and not very welcoming.

All I got from the SNU development circles was a sense of disillusion and a sense of 'separateness' from all things spiritual. I felt there were conditions placed on me and if I did not meet the criteria then I was made to feel that I were not 'special' enough or 'good' enough to work with Spirit. They were very critical. If you were a person who suffered a poor sense of self worth, which I did at the time, it would feed into that sense of not being good enough. 

So, I decided to try psychic development circles external to the churches and found a couple. Again, I found myself in situations where the circle leader would try and teach 'their' methods of how a person should work with spirit. As I have come to find out, everyone has their own unique way of working with Spirit, so this lead to a lot of frustration when I wouldn't develop like I was 'expected' too. This reinforced in me that perhaps I was not good enough to work with Spirit and so I would fall away from developing time and time again. 

Over the last few years, as I have dabbled with psychic development, I have also been doing a lot of work on my own personal development in regards to my default setting of not feeling good enough and as a result my self worth has increased and I have become more self assured. This has impacted on my psychic development by encouraging me to listen to my own gut feeling, trusting in how I work with Spirit and actually disagreeing with those so called circle leaders when I know my gut tells me something different. This resulted in my having to leave said circles because the circle leaders perhaps felt threatened and it caused animosity. I made a conscious decision to go it alone and work with my Guides and let my Guides teach me how to develop by myself and understand my own unique way of working with Spirit. This is what I have been doing for the last couple of years.

Very recently I thought I would reach out and join the only development circle I haven't tried yet and give it one last go. As church circles go, it was actually a lovely circle with lovely people and we did a few great meditations and psychic exercises. One exercise was for us to write down anything psychic/mediumistic that we could pick up for another member of the group. I found myself writing down a lot of random stuff then found myself wanting to sketch a mans face. A few weeks later we did a wonderful meditation where I felt a 'thought voice' tell me that I was going to 'get what I asked for' and that 'I had better be prepared to work hard' and that the 'veil was lifting'. I had no idea what that meant for me and I did find myself questioning if this was me talking to myself or if it was from my Guide.  As much as I found this intriguing, the religious aspect and rigidity once again ruined it for me. I became bored of it. So I left wishing everyone good luck.

So....I decided to have a wee bash at asking my Guide to help me draw Spirit. I am aware that I am at the very beginning of my journey, like I said I am not a professional by any means but hey ho....a gal's gotta try, right! :)