REFLECTION 1

So....it's been a few weeks since I first started posting my spirit drawings and I think its time to reflect on how I feel about it all.

In all honesty I feel disbelief that I am attempting spirit portraits. I am under no illusion that I am a complete beginner and I am aware of my trying to find my feet and understand how this all works. Despite all my years of  developing on and off over the years, I still have more questions than answers. It would appear that I am swimming in the deep end of trying to do drawings using a mixture of 'knowing'  and 'feeling' along with impressions. Each one as clear as mud!

I think my sense of  simply 'knowing and feeling' is strongest. I find myself saying 'I feel...she had brown hair, she was a funny person, a pointy chin'. Other times I just 'know' things without knowing why. An occasionally I get impressions in my mind that can be snippets of clear or vague images. I think I hear thoughts, I call them thought voices but with everything kind of happening all at the same time, its hard to separate them.

I am aware at the moment that I am consciously 'letting go'. I am literally saying exactly what comes into my mind.....and that takes balls because some of the stuff I receive, whichever way it comes, can be bizarre to me! I am learning to give in and completely trust that the information I receive is relevant....not for me, hence it being bizarre sometimes but for the person who has to receive it. So for the moment, this is all I can do and hope that the more it comes to me the more it will make sense and I will have a greater understanding of it all.